When did you realize you didn’t relate to your birth gender?
When i was 5 years old.
How did you deal with that mentally & physically?
Growing up was difficult, my father was very anti LGBT, He forced his views on me and if i deviated from what he saw as being normal id face a multitude of beatings. So to deal with this mentally i wasn’t able to really, the pure feeling of fear of my life kept me from ever addressing it. Physically i was able to sneak around and have my own fashion shows in the basement, however i was not very discreet as my mom had caught me with female garments well over 100 times a few of which my father was a party to, i imagine you can figure out what transpired.
Give me a glimpse of the inside you verse your outward appearance.
The inside me is very loving and always willing to help others when the need arises, the outward me is hard to explain because I’m not incredibly happy with the way i look and that does impact how i live my everyday life
How would you prefer people to address you? pronouns, preferred name etc
I prefer female pronouns and to be called Madison
What does gender identity mean to you?
To me gender identity means feeling comfortable in your own skin with the ability to live as the gender you were meant to be
Was there someone in your life that helped you start to see your authentic/true self? Tell me about how they helped you/who they are/
Yes! when i was on the fence about transitioning i met Jaden Remy and Aubrey Melony Gibaldi. those two helped me conquer the one thing that weighed me down which was the toxic relationship between myself and my father i owe a great deal of who i am to those two lovely humans
Talk to me about your struggles with identity and how you’ve overcome them.
OMG the struggles were so real, i lived my life the way my dad wanted me to live it. i sunk myself into depression and didn’t value life very much. I played sports and did the macho man thing for the better part of 28 years. I got into body building video games, and partying every week to keep me on the straight and narrow, nothing was working. When i moved out of my parents house thats when i was able to blossom